I did something today, i let Xavier hands on my computer!!! =) and to my surprise he loves it.. maybe because im at the playhouse disney webbie la.. =P he enjoyed his bowling game.. he's able to use the mouse to clickclick but using his thumb and he loves to right click.. =P .. lol.. he gets all excited playing his games.. enjoying the stories and activities they provide.. next after the writing pad comes i guess he'll have more fun doing his 'coloring'!!! his new game with the computer : Ooh & Aah CocoNutty Bowling

The start of the week was a lazy one, woke up only at 10.15 am, alarm was knocked down by me at 9am, 930 hp alarm sounded and i snoozed it dead. =x washed up and prepared xavier for school. Last week for the whole week he din even whimper when he stepped into school, but i musn't be too happy first. cos he has this moodswings, 1 week presenting himself so well , the following will be singing his anthem again. haha, but im so happy for him that he's adapting well in school.
his progress in school is what im happy about, which makes me feel i din make a wrong decision in sending him to Pre-N early this year. he can learn to be more independant, learn to socialise with more people, learn to share, learn lots and lots of things! he can sing me a full song now.. and lots of bits and crumps of songs whenever i play his disc on the comp. his mandarain has improved tremendously! despite speaking to him in mandarain he din pick up from me.. he picked them up in school. recently he came back from school and came near me, and "boo-ed" me in my face and exclaimed "啊！吓死我！" .. and the reason was b4 he went into class a storm was approaching and the roaring of the thunder could be heard, his classmate Keeren went "啊！吓死我！" and there goes Xavier with his new vocab.. haha..
Xavier has a new set of pins! =)
Sunday noon Jo wanted to go down to get the cardboard for her waredrobe so she said 'Lin,走，我们去楼下uncle那边买东西。。' than i went into the kitchen walked into the living and i saw Xavier digging for his sandals at the shoerack.. i asked him
Me: "Darling, where you going?"
Xavier: '去楼下uncle 买东西！'
Me: ‘买什么？'
Xavier: "买big BOWLING!' ..
Me: "谁要买给你？"
Xavier: "Yi~ 买给我。。"

than he went into the room and tugged Jo outta the room..
hahaha, he has been going on and on about this set of bowling at the uncle's store. i kept holding back as i've been buying him too much toys and he has a new recent set of bowling which is like those mini alley type..u can hit down the tags from the top or u bowl as usual.. innovative yea? i bought it for $9 at those stalls that open in the morning at my hse area.. =) he loves bowling.. last monday daredi brought him to hougang for games without me accompanying him, i packed his bag, his jacket, made him a bottle of milk and he left home ard 6.45pm.. and reached hm ard 11pm.. i called marmi ard 830pm to check on him.. bt he din even asked for me.. so i was at home 'springcleaning' up the house.. hehe. whn he got home he told me he went bowling, went to drive cars in the arcade, talked to the uncles there. so KUTE!! haha =P

22.08 - A day at SIL house, picture taken by Leonard =)

its me! =) taken by Leonard, he's a quick learner.. he knows how to use cameras and its his first time using mine and he picked it up in no time!　＝）

ta da! its the boys.. -1 , cos lerrance is sleeping =P hehehe ..

lastly a few random pictures with Elaine .. =) Leonard .. and Xavier!＝）

i hope the nxt time i'm updating it won't be 3months from now.

been pretty lazy these few mths, too lazy to compile the pictures, too lazy to do anything.. let the pictures do the talking. =)

15.08 - a day at my SIL house with her gigantic collection of Thomas & Friends

07-08 - Dining At Sakae with darlingg while Xavier's in school

Its national day celebrations in sch, Xavier was dress in his old CNY pants which was actually a too long pants and now its a 3/4, when he got home his tummy had those 'rubber' marks from the pants, ay darling boy, you've grown!

My lovely lady & my helper of the day - Hazel =*) *MUACKS*

A picture to remember, taken by Xavier!!
Thou the shots don't look very marvelous but at least can see us in the picture!
Thank you darling boy!
04-08 - Darlingg left for genting on the 2nd, my week was made bz with xavier and my lovely ladies, we had steamboat at home and left for KTV session after dinner together with Jo and Xavier! had losta fun that day.. its like a session in 1000000years!
01.08 - Aini's bb girl 1yr party (Sheila)
Xavier singing "we're the doodlebops, we're the doodlebops, we're the doodlebops oh YEAH~" , he's strumming on his doolebops guitar, signed off by Rooney Doodle!

Xavier's coloring has improved, the first picture the towel was done by him!! The rest where the strokes are much neater are done by me of cos, the rest done by Xavier.. i'm so proud of his progress. especially in conversing in mandarin.

A mailbox surprise from Xavier..
a sch project whereby Miss Feline requested for stamps, and Xavier drew and pasted the stuffs u see with assistance from his teachers.

09.07 - A day at ikea, and the 3 new 'train seats

07.07 - A lazy afternoon and a series of peektures with my Jolyn xiaojie! =)

06.07 - b4 heading off to northpoint for dinner ..
02.07 - xavier's new school bag ..
but he insists its his bowling bag. =)

01.07 - Xavier going to school ..
29.06 - darlinggs reservice.. and my wonderful haircut done for him =P..

Lovely peekture ? =) i find it so nice.. =P..

08.06 - Off to EastCoastPark with darlingg, xavier , jolyn, merwyn & martin.

May 2009

940am, im gg to slp.. =x woke ard 6, ordered mac breakfast, washed the clothes, read mails, find new sprees, boil the herbal tea.. nw all the stuffs done.. waiting to burn the incense paper than wana go n nap awhile.. 初一 so gt to pray. xavier woke at 9am, walked out while i was hanging the clothes, thn i make milk for him, he drank n went back to slp. muahaha, so i tink i can slp by 1015.. at least can slp 45mins.. wuaahhahhaa.. wondering wads for lunch today.. im feeling kinda hungry nw .. grr..

ok. the end. its 9.52.. i gtg burn incense paper.. than drink my nestum.. im gg 2 knock out in bed, wk up for a hearty meal!!

Friday after school darlingg n i brought Xavier to the post office to have my stuffs delivered, thn went to eat our lunch, bought my chocolate swiss roll, bread..thn headed to northpoint as promised. i told xavier that if he behaved in sch, he will get to go to northpoint to drive his cars and bowl..
Xavier behind the wheels.. =)
Round n round n round, happily driving.. the mini alley was under repair.. so he couldn't play with it.. hehehaha.. twice we went.. twice spoilt! =x
stomping at the spideys!
Xavier in the lift going to school !
Thurday - lunchie with darlingg at northpoint xinwang =)
New PJs for xavier! i like it so much, looks like comic strip.. hehehe..
20.05 - Wednesday..
ting dropped by after work to collect her stuffs, met her at macdonalds to packet dinner, and we changed our mind and had duckrice instead.. we ransacked the goods that came that day. . puffed while we chatted away.. i agree with ' 伤心也是一天，开心也是一天，为什么不要选择开开心心过一天？' ..
AhYiMummi & Xavier =*)
Lady Hazel with her new hair color =) －我是淑女 .. LOL!
不老的传说 .. '晕头' 婷.. =X
Always dere, always ard, thou our lifes are so much different.. *muacks*
Xavier's new DS casing.. but i had kept his DS for 2days =x.. i wanted to stop his gaming .. cos its like he's playing tOOOOoo much...
Xavier trying out his new cap.. his thomas cap strap came off le!

tmr monday liaosh, gg to sch again.. super fast.. LOL! he's gg go mummi mummi again.. i havens had dinner. i only ate a piece of cake, a kfc drumstick just now.. cos i realli dunno wad to eat.. abit sick of the food here at yishun.. how i wish im at bedok or tampines now.. at least i know what i wana eat.. =\.. nw im gg to food on my saralee chocolate pound cake!! drink my bigbig mug of tehO thn get ready to do some stuffs than i wana rest.. this week gt shipment coming in, taobao stuffs.. song! i love it when stuffs come in. cos sure got my things, gt endless of packing and cleaning up to do, tiring, exhausting but FUN la!! its like so long since the stuffs come in, thn nxt week still gt TW stuffs coming in.. power packed. i love being busy with things comin in, but dun like being busy doing the work.. haha, must find someone to do for me liao.. ahemahem. anyone?

boring sunday, i woke up this morning, darlingg was already out in bed.. thn followed by xavier.. we rotted at home ate breakfast thn jo woke around 2+, we had planning to go to aston's but i changed my mind.. so in the end.. we had yongtauhu =) nua-ed till 430pm went to slp, over dosed again. slept till 630pm, and know what? i had a hard time coaxing xavier into bed today.. we went into the room at 1150.. he drank his milk, i told him goodnite, i fake slp, n i fell aslp, 1245 i woke he lying beside me talking, thn saw me awake he said mummi 起来。。i ask him slp he said ok, thn rolled around in bed, fake slp!! whn i stood up than he started yakking again, super hyper.. i din let him get off the bed.. only lying down and we both talked..abit foolish to u all but so much to me la. haha.. we talked about seben-eleben, market, supermarket, barber, bakery, clinic, tailor, fishball, rotiprata, soyabean.. wahhaha.. all the stalls downstairs, he still imitate the 'uncle' which i always mention that will repair the barber lights for him.. hahaha, he wil go ' tik tik tik, 1 .. 2.. 3... BEEP! ok! .. barber ok! TURNTURNTURN!!!' which means the uncle repair the turning lights already than its working now. WAHHAHAHAHA!!i simply love the way he smiles.. =)
yesterday evening, marmi woke me up from my slp, told us to get ready for dinner, 20mins she arrived with daredi in the car, drove to sembawang the thai sharkfin restaurant to eat.. i tell u ar, not worthit! compared to thai village at kallang, its like so big diff but the prices so steep also, walk in already know is those tai lang diam.. haha..the sharkfin we had was like, too watery, than marmi ordered too much dishes, 8dishes .. still sharkfin.. ate till beri full bt felt we could have spent a leetle more to eat at kallang.. daredi la.. gt once drove past here whn we gg home thn he said there gt thai sharkfin restaurant so we went to try.. the one at kallang is 泰国村。。　this one is 泰国坊 different loh~~ hahaha!!
on our way back home after 'shopping' at 7-11.. xavier loves 7-11.. he likes to go , seben eleben OPEN!!!! HAHAHA.. mumbling real fast.. so kute.. must find time record dwn to post..hehehaha.

3.41am, just finished some wrk, gg to slp soon but decided to post xavier & my pictures! the top pic looks awful la, see my shitty face wan seh.. but cannot don post.. cos b so kute. =p~
taken back at home after dinner with darlingg.. =)
Xavier @ Northpoint Xin Wang..
darlingg, me n chou2.. eateeateatt.. im always eating the same thing, 221 mee sua, 751 奶茶.. =x always.. forever.. cos im craving for it today.. n nobody is eating dinner with me i rang darlingg up and told him to meet me there after work and he did! so tada! thats my dinner!!
Xavier the pizza boy, bought this set of toy for $3.90/- .. nt the pizza only la.. gt the cutleries, sauce, breadsticks, than red pepper, cheese drinkss blahblah.. mini pizza hut.. than this morning when he went to sch i bought another 2sets, 1 set is cooking stove set, those kitchen stuffs, the other cleaning set.. so noon time we were like playing n playing.. cook than wash dishes eat, sweep, mop.. i love pretend play with him.. cos he's like always full of ideas.. hehehe.. tomorrow is saturday.. he only slept at 1am just now.. we were watching tv together.. now im gg take a break, drink my nestum and go to bed.. i wonder whats in tomorrow.. its saturday!!

recently he has this beri bad behaviour, he likes to whine alot.. feel like boxing him, at times when i repeatedly tell him nt to do that and he ignores me, i will piak him with my ruler. WAHHAAA.. abit bad right, but no choice, gt to stop this nonsense.. nt good for him too..
first day gg back to sch after MC-ing for a week, he was so happy, getting dressed up, finding his sch bag, getting his shoes n socks, all ready waiting for me to open the door.. went dwn while waiting he saw his friends he was like sooooo happy .. but when he was abt to go in, his eye turned red, brimming with tears, called out to me 'mummi.. hug!' .. i hugged him, thn he walked in 1/2wae, called out again ' mummi, i nurve u .. ( i love u ) .. '.. which means want me to give him big hug n big kiss. i did that. and he went in .. =) hehehe. happy for him, checked with teacher Feline if he was missing anything out, but luckily nothing much.. hahaha.. =D

Thursday 14th May..
darlinggs off day today... we din dine at xin wang whn xavier went to sch this noon, we went to Sakae at northpoint, new place.. new env, in the past was like sooo long queue with its so small n lok kok area.. now big, spacious smmore. thn gt the leetle froggie mouse which i found it so kute. HAHAHA! eh, but i dun like the salmon dunno wad i ordered, was cOld.. sour.. bland.. duno hw to describe, still love chawanmushi best. =x saba too many bones for me, darlingg happily eating sashimi.. haha.. happy happy happy.. after lunch we went to pick chou2 up from sch, watched movies in the noon, went for our afternoon nap, woke and rotted at home, evening went dwn to buy dinner, and some materials for xavier's sch 'project'.. to do a home. -.=" i was like stunned.. dunno hw to do. only mention to be on cardboard, or cut n paste, 2d or 3d also can.. so i was like a dumb mummi dunno hw to do.. i bought $7/- materials. .. 1 big blue board, 1 white clay dough, 1coloured paper, 2superglue, 4packs icecreamstick .. i tink out of $7 , i onli used $2 of the materials i bought..
firstly was happily doing the toilet than sticking on the blue board, than made walls with the icecream stick, darlingg came n helped out with the sink, chou2 wanted a bathtub, and blue blankies for his bed.. so we cutcut presspress till we got those figures out.. and CHANGED our mind. i took shoe box, cutcutcut, than placed the leetle figurines inside.. 'built-in' lights for the home, some simple decor, got a mini photoframe, inserted xavier's picture and TADA!! his home is done, with on-off lights switch somemore.. haha..
its 3.35am now, i just finished all the mails, ate my pengroti with ham, drinking coke now.. i starting my bad habit again.. i used to drink coke everyday big bottle.. thn i stopped, changed to drinking hot teh-0 , 1 day 1glass, this week i started stocking coke in the fridge again, shit me. i got to stop this rubbish!!! my plan for tomorrow is to start getting the new taobao shopping list ready, muahaha.. im aiming for a new mobile, a new specs again!!! YEAH! than soon, soon la.. but duno when im gonna invest in a new waredrobe, than upgrade my comp!! WOOHOO!!! i feel so happy to blog today, reason, i blog only today's event, dunit one short edit so many pictures, recall n recall squeeze brain juice to think back what i did b4.. haha..

i promise i won't be lazy.. =P~

xavier, get well soon! .. i miss ur usual self. i really do.. ..

its been so long sinced i last blog, im back here today cos ive got losta feelings losta thoughts i dunno whom should i pour to..

26/04 xavier fell sick, cough and flu.. went to the doctor he recovered very quickly..
29/04 darlinggs birthday but i fell sick, got high fever.. can't even go to sch to pick him up.. sick for 4days .. seen doctor twice.. once at yishun , a clinic near my house but i hate that place cos i din have a very good impression of the clinic. xavier din get well after he saw her when he was younger.. and i din get better thou ive seen a doctor.. till today still feeling sick.. got cough, blocked nose and losta phlegm.. on the 4th, xavier caught my illness and he fell sick again.. fever this time round.. woke in the wee hours and ate medicine.. till late noon he din recover.. brought him dwn to bedok dr wee..

the first day, xavier din drink much milk.. to me its normal .. cos fever where got appetite.. but still i whipped up his favourite fishcake.. fried eggs, steamed fish and porridge.. but he din eat. he ate 2mouthful and told me 不要！！！it seems to be his 口头禅 nowadays. u will always hear him carrying this word with him.. at times it will be 我不要！..2nd day, his appetite got worst.. stoppped drinking milk.. drank only twice a day.. but still eating some food on and off but vomitted.. got worried.. let him eat cake, bread blahblah.. still can eat.. bought him glucose, he din like.. refused to drink..

today was the worst of all, he drank only 150OZ of milk the whole day!!! normally he can drink up to 330ml per feed!! which is standard he wakes he will ask for milk, b4 sch he will ask for milk, after sch milk again, thn eat some porridge, ard 330pm-4pm last feed of milk b4 he sleeps.. when he wakes he will ask for milk, than dinner and snack time till until 10+ he will sure ask for his beloved milk, and the last feed at bedtime. now??~!~ he DOESN't ask for milk at all!!! not even water.. even i eat in front of him, he won't even point or say he wants to eat mummum.

past few days, xavier kept throwing tantrums, he will scream NO!! at me when i ask him to eat or drink milk/water.. thn walk into the room, jump onto the bed.. ignore me.. when i walk in he will scream and say 不要！！！than once i leave the room he will keep quiet.. for 2 consequtive days, he cried himself to sleep.. b4 he slept, he hid himself in the room, weeping n whimpering away.. half drying his tears with his hands and the other rubbing his eyes.. it hurts me alot.. when i try to go near him to carry him, he will push me away.. it was definately heart wrenching.. i felt so helpless.. as his mummi i cannot do anything.. he din wan me to cheer him up, he din even wan his favourie baobao n bolster to accompany him to bed.. he just wasn't his usual self.. no giggles of xavier, no songs to listen, no busy yaking or dancing xavier anymore.. he just strolled around the house, grab his color pencils, doodle, than read his book, fling it away, play with his toys, than ds, than psp, than loiter around the house, on the tv, on the dvd.. but he was all quiet..

tomorrow ill be bringing him to kkh, i called in kkh just now, they advised to send him in tmr if he still doesn't feeds well.. i feel so sad.. cos once he go there, he gt to face needles, face strangers, face pain, face torture.. i mean, some docs n nurses there are like so fierce.. im realli afraid that xavier will get scared n frightened..but i have to , i HAVE TO!!! i've got to seek medical help!! i realli duno wad to do with him =(

he fell aslp at 1am just now, without drinking his milk, i only managed to force him to sip some water from his bottle .. and he rubbed his eyes.. told me 'good night mummi' and he went to slp.. in just 5mins, he dozed off.. i cried while i sat beside and spoke to him.. i told him ' darling boy, tomorrow do u want to go to the hospital? doctor will poke u with the needle to put u on drip if u still refuse to drink milk and eat mummum u know?' he merely said ' dun wan.. ' when prompted again, he said 我不要。。 hais. i realli dunno how ..
i'll be there, wherever you are.. i promise..

Xavier, everyone is very worried about you.. get well soon.. thou mummi often chids u for being a noti boi but i love you!! i miss ur laughter, miss ur nonsense, miss ur lil big hugs, miss u jumping on the bed, miss u messing around my stuffs, miss u asking for london chocolate roll, miss u pestering me to go dwnstairs .. 我想念你的笑容，想念那个调皮的你。。