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these few days memories of the pasts keep floating back to me ..with regards to what kinda person am i in the past to whom i was and what i did. i cant realli recall most of the things i did in the past.. and all i did was just to rot outside. no dinners like we have now with my family. my family to me in the past all i needed was just a shelter.. when i came back from wrk .. i slp .. they are at work.. when i wake n leave home .. they're nt ard.. when i slp they look at me.. we dun call each other .. dun have dinners together.. excluding past year. i guess i din celebrate chinese new year with them for 2 or 3years. bad m i .. thinking about it..i guess we've realli gone thru so much together.. thou we were like strangers back than .. nw we sit n talk .. eat shop together.. taking jo for example.. we lead our lifes without talking or even lookin at each other.. i seldom see her .. she seldom sees me .. we don't talk.. now we smoke together.. talk .. eat shop together.. and it just feels so great.. i guess xavier has a part to play in all these.. if i din't give birth to my little one.. i guess i would still have been a zombie.. someone who doesn't kare about what kinship is all about.. to those out there whom are taking your family members for granted.. one day you'll realise how it feels .. when you are all alone. .
